Whatever happen may happen.

What is fate?? is it trying ti imply that the fate between two people is not up yet thats why things can never say in a extreme manner?

Why decision cant be made if this person is it possible in the future? Why why why??!!!!

I dun understand but i guess this is why all the more i need to understand.

Maybe i am forcing things to happen in which it shouldn't be this way.

Reflection

Has being a f***ing long time since i updated again. Was damn busy with work and other stuffs.

Recently reflecting on alot of stuff. Especially on my emotion dept. Found out the side that i thought was gone and never never wish to surface again.

The side of me which is so paranoid.
The side of me which always look into details.
The side of me which keep wanting to know the reasons for every actions that the person did.
The side of me which feels like a loser.

I guess is due to some unpleasant experience in the past. Thats why this side of me is formed. 4 years ago. I thought that i managed to keep it locked and sealed like forever. But 4 years later, it came back and haunt me again. It suddenly struck me deeply. If all this while, i may be running, but i am still running on track mil. Not moving a single inch in the emotion dept. It felt like shit. But no longer anymore, because this time i am going to FREAKING ELIMINATE IT ONCE & FOR ALL.

Cheers, will update if time allows. :)

The Way I Am

Wow!! Its being a long time since i last blogged. Recently has being tooooo busy with all the work and entertainment. Haha.

Have you ever wonder what other people think about you? Be it as a person or physically.

Have you ever to some extend even tried to change the way you behave just because some people put a barrier between you two?

Well, i for one am those who is really concerned about how other people think about me. But to a certain extend i even tried to behave what other people expect me to behave. But sometimes some people just don't know where is the border and when they tried to step over it. Thats it baby!! lolx.

So i came to a conclusion that i'm not going to give a damn about what others think. Because like what Eminem sang in his song, " THE WAY I AM "

" And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am "

So whatever dudes.. Till i blog next time. Cya. :)

Flying without wings

Have you ever question yourself before regarding dreams and interest?

Are dreams the same as interest?

Are interest different from dreams?

Getting rich is everyone's dream. "I dream of getting rich", "I dream of earning one million" blah blah. But...

Is getting rich, everyone's interest?

My interest is to play soccer. My interest is to cycle or play games. But again...

Is your interest, your dream too?

But interest may not be necessary different from dreams. Like players in EPL and NBA. I believe their interest is the sports and their dream is to be the greatest player in the game.

Well, some of my friends are currently pursing their interest. Some learn bakery skills, some learning to sing, some wanna be in the civil service.

This suddenly pop out a question: what i am doing now is it a dream or interest?

I don't think that i am a person with any interest from the start. I like soccer, basketball, cycling, keeping track of latest fashion, cooking and etc. But this can only be consider as past times or hobbies. And when i am in my advanced age, wish to open a bar by some beautiful beach and chill with friends and family. So is this considered a dream or interest?

I dream of getting rich, but isn't it same as what everyone wish for?

So where is my interest? Well i guess the only answer for me is:

My interest is to get rich.

There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream!

Its been a while since i blog. LMAO. Maybe i am those type that don't do things for the sake of doing. But i do it for a purpose. Same feeling while i am typing this blog. I suddenly had this feeling to pen down my thoughts today.

Finally i cleared the 2 x exam paper which is vital for my progress to the financial field. Now i can feel the stress starting to weigh down on me. What i am feeling right now is the flame in me is starting to die out. Lolx. I know this shouldn't be the case, but nevertheless i vow that i will find back that flame in me. Alot of trades that i need to master along the way and this will add on to the amount of stress. But i believe that all these trainings and tekan will not bring any negative outcomes but will only makes you stronger. Below is a meaingful quote i came across:

" The samurai Sword is a thing of beauty, its blade unsurpassed by any other sword. Those that wield it have earned un-paralleled respect and honour. In times of our greatest difficulty, we look for the sharpest edge to end our pain and suffering, however like that sword, it is through the heat and fire and years of being beaten that the finest swords in the world are made. If you remember, when you feel that there is no hope, if you only wish for the end to take you, remember that you are the samurai sword and nothing can stop you after you get through this."

It is a quote to help in times when you feel there is no hope. It is there to remind you that when all is done, you are an unstoppable blade.



Well for me, if i am lost, i will just remember the training and tough times during OCS and i will suddenly feel stronger. Lolx. No wonder they keep saying cadets can do wonder. lolx.

Guess it will be a long time before i update this blog again. Sincerely hope that the next time i blog, it will be a happy one. Cheers.

For one to change the fruits, one must change the roots

Recently grew to like Tanya Chua's songs alot. Maybe they are those type which you would like to sit back on a lazy afternoon and listen to it. Songs like, "达尔文", "雙棲動物", "无底洞" and etc etc really got my likings for it. Espically "达尔文". Just take a look at the lyrics.

蔡健雅 - 达尔文

我的青春也不是没伤痕
是明白爱是信仰的延伸
甚么特征人缘还是眼神
也不会预知爱不爱的可能
保持单身忍不住又沉沦
兜着圈子来去有时苦等
人的一生感情是旋转门
转到了最后真心的就不分
有过竞争有过牺牲
被爱筛选过程
学会认真学会忠诚
适者才能生存
懂得永恒得要我们
进化成更好的人
我的青春有时还蛮单纯
相信幸福取决于爱得深
读进化论我赞成达尔文
没实力的就有淘汰的可能
我的替身已换过多少轮
记忆在旧情人心中变冷
我的一生有几道旋转门
转到了最后只剩你我没分
有过竞争有过牺牲
被爱筛选过程
学会认真学会忠诚
适者才能生存
懂得永恒得要我们
进化成更好的人
有过竞争有过牺牲
被爱筛选过程
学会认真学会忠诚
适者才能生存
懂得永恒得要我们
进化成更好的人

Meaningful bo? lolx. It can summarise most people relationship stories. Moreover, the tune of the song is harmonious. Ok.. below is the MV.



Alrite trying hard for my exam. Wish me luck. Chaozz..

One can only face his true self in the deepest of the night

Have you ever considered Love over Friendship or Friendship over Love?

Lets face this scenario:

A & B are buddies. Ever since in their sec sch days.

A & B met GAL in a party.

A & B develop feelings for GAL.

B knows A like GAL.

GAL likes A but have slight feelings for B.

B asked A to give up GAL for him.

ok!! Here comes the question: If you were A, will you give up or stand firm?

Ok. If i am talking in A's perspective, i will stand firm. Let me explain.

A's friendship with B already started to "rot" ever since B knew A liked GAL. If A were to give up GAL for B, do you ever think that B will still treat A like it was before? like nothing ever happen?

BULLSHIT!!!

If ever that B got together with GAL due to A giving up. B will still keep a watch on A and their friendship will still never be the same. Having lost love and in return gain a sour friendship, at the end of the day, who will be the loser?

Having said all these, do you think that there is enough reason for A to fight back? Seriously, those that say," I will give up the one i love for my buddy!!". I only got two word: F*** that!!! You can say i am wrong or what or unless you are a saint, but i don't give a damn.

Ok.. Now on the other side of the story. If A were to give up on GAL, it is still not wrong. But it will depends on the parties involved including A himself. The story will need a:

FORGIVING B, GENEROUS A and a HEARTLESS GAL.

If all these three requirements met, then with A giving up on GAL will means that A lost love but in return gain a new friendship with GAL and B. Sounds nice right?

But the possibility of these happening is like 0.000000000001%. LMAO.

It is really good to put friendship in the front but if stakes are too high or through some struggling that you still can't give up, then something somewhere is telling you that you shouldn't give up. And all the more you should stand firm and hold on. Just like the song," Flying without wings":

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Anyway is just a random post, some food for thought. Cheers.